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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

09.06.2025 14:45

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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I was 9 years of age.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Is the Shia claim true that Imam Ali was born inside the Kaaba?

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My family never makes their pension either.

Why is the world male-dominated?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

So whats the point in blame.

Is there a type of function where every point has exactly one tangent line passing through it? If yes, what is this type of function called?

We were not on the streets..

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

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This is soul school!.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

What is love?

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But it wasn’t much.

Why The Simpsons stopped producing Maude Flanders episodes?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As i do to all so called friends.?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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I think the readers, may guess!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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She married twice! .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

What is the best comeback you used on someone?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

All the time i was locked up.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She wouldn,t have been !

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

And i lived it daily.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

So, i spoilt her more .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I waited trembling.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He was dying to do it , i knew.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Put me off passion for life!!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I was seconnd youngest,

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Would this be the day?

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

My life is so biszare .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I will be 64.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

It was going to be , some day.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He knew the spot.

Especially a lifetime of it.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I said to her

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I never cut or harmed myself..

But, we were locked up after school.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She found it foreign!.

I don,t even have a pension.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I write beautiful poetry .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Why did i forgive my father ?

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

When she asked me how she looked .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

One cannot live in the past .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I was very sick at this time too.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She loved him until the end.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She was in good health!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I have no regrets .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I could never make a relationship work though!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

What did i know ?

But ive been too sick for many years..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Who then, do I blame.?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Im still living with it.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was scared of men, in general

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Comes on , in middle age.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Ive learnt so much.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

We all went to grammer schools

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!